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Monday, February 21, 2011

Silence

There have been times in my life when it felt like God was simply everywhere…every time I pick up my Bible, the Word jumps out at me. My prayer life is vibrant and active – I’m talking and He’s listening and He’s talking and I’m listening. Every time I turn on the radio, the perfect song is playing and I’m instantly in tears. Daily devotional? Yep, right on the money. Phone call from a friend? You guessed it, right on time.

And then there are times like the past few weeks. Times when I pick up my Bible and read and in the middle of my reading my mind has wondered to my grocery list. Times when I hear a song on the radio and know it is a great worship opportunity but I just don’t have it in me. Times when I sit in front of the computer and hope for an encouraging e-mail only to find only a pile of spam messages and solicitations for donations. Times when I am living the Psalmist’s words in Psalm 63 – ‘God you are my God, earnestly I seek you, fervently I long for you in this dry and weary land where there is no water…’

At times like this, the silence is deafening.

The lonely is overwhelming.

Monday, February 14, 2011

Valentine's Day...

Ok, so today is Valentine’s Day. In the excitement and adrenaline of preparing to speak at the Awaken conference this past weekend, the whole ‘Happy Valentine’s Day’ thing completely slipped my mind.

And that very thought fills me with such peace that I can barely keep from squealing!

You see, when you are single – whether thrust into it by another’s choice – or slammed into it by loss of a life – or simply always have been ; when you are single, this day of love and candy and love and jewelry and love and candlelit dinners and love and flowers and did I mention love? - this day can be kind of lonely.

This Noah's ark 'two-by-two' holiday parade of celebration can sometimes make you feel awkward and angry and alone.  Kind of like a unicorn standing there alone in the rain while the ark sails away.