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Monday, February 21, 2011

Silence

There have been times in my life when it felt like God was simply everywhere…every time I pick up my Bible, the Word jumps out at me. My prayer life is vibrant and active – I’m talking and He’s listening and He’s talking and I’m listening. Every time I turn on the radio, the perfect song is playing and I’m instantly in tears. Daily devotional? Yep, right on the money. Phone call from a friend? You guessed it, right on time.

And then there are times like the past few weeks. Times when I pick up my Bible and read and in the middle of my reading my mind has wondered to my grocery list. Times when I hear a song on the radio and know it is a great worship opportunity but I just don’t have it in me. Times when I sit in front of the computer and hope for an encouraging e-mail only to find only a pile of spam messages and solicitations for donations. Times when I am living the Psalmist’s words in Psalm 63 – ‘God you are my God, earnestly I seek you, fervently I long for you in this dry and weary land where there is no water…’

At times like this, the silence is deafening.

The lonely is overwhelming.


Last week in the midst of this season of silence, I decided to go running. Laced up my shoes and turned on my ipod. Now, keep in mind, I am not a RUNNER, I am more of a poser, slowly trying to work my way up to three miles without collapsing. I decided to put my ipod on shuffle and see what came up. The first song was Toby Mac – ‘Jesus Music’, awesome! The second song, Britt Nicole- Glow , ok now I was up to a mile and feeling great.

‘Thank you Lord for this day and this moment,’ I thought, ‘ I know Lord, that you are going to put the perfect song on next to finish this next long stretch’.

I waited- and …..nothing. The silence was deafening. No new song came on. Absolutely nothing was coming from my ipod. And all I could hear was the sound of my footsteps and my ragged intake of breath. Determined to finish my two miles I kept plodding on. Step by step. Breath by breath. And with each huff of breath came these words….

‘God…. Where…Are….You?’ ‘ God… Where… Are… You?’

As I looked up to the heavens there was no audible answer, but I felt His words replace my question with every step:

‘I…am…with…you!’ ‘I…am…with…you!’

Even in the silence. Even on grey days. Even when I feel empty and hear nothing, He is with me.

Back to Psalm 63- the psalmist goes on to say: ‘I have seen you in the sanctuary and I have beheld you power and your glory. Because your loving kindness is better than life, I will choose to life up my hands in your name.

Regardless of what you are feeling today – His promises are true.

Joshua 1:5 says, ‘As I was with Moses, so I will be with you, I will never leave you or forsake you’

Isaiah 43: 2 says, ‘When you pass through the waters, I will be with you. ‘

You see, His presence is not dependent our feelings. It is simply a fact.

I pray that whether you are in a amazing season of revelation or an agonizing season of silence you will hear His gentle whisper….’ I am with you’.

Eternal God – you have been the hope and joy of many generations and are no less to me. In all ages you have given us the power to seek you and the promise of finding you. Grant me, I pray, a clearer vision of your truth, a greater faith in your power, and a more confident assurance of your love. Amen. (John Baillie in a Diary of Private Prayer)

2 comments:

Melissa Taylor said...

Danita,

I cannot believe I haven't been to your blog before! I'm embarrassed about that! I love it! I even signed up to get it to me email!

Thank you for sharing your life and faith through your blog. I look forward to reading your stuff!

Would you consider doing a guest post for my blog sometime?

Love you!
Melissa

Melanie said...

I've run in silence with HIM many times.
I came over from Tea with Tiffany.